Back From the Dead

 Hi everyone! Long time no see huh? I just feel weird these days. I know I have neglected this blog completely. I need to start updating more. A lot keeps happening in life, I don’t why though. I just have started to feel demotivated about this blog a lot because there are so many things I want to write about but the people who read this blog are the ones I know. And unfortunately, a lot of these said people are famous for adding their own versions of the story and will definitely not understand what I am trying to express here. 

College changes you a lot. Like one year in, and I’m already a whole new person. I want to be able to express myself without having this extreme fear of being unnecessarily and most importantly UNFAIRLY judged (delulu fr) but yes. 

So, what I have decided is… screw this. I don’t care what wrecks happen in my life, let people gossip about this. I don’t care anymore. I can’t bear talking about superficial topics that I have no particularly strong passion over in this blog. The blog was made for a reason. It was made for me to express myself and that is what I will definitely do. 

Whoever has a problem with that can kindly leave and not read this anymore. Constructive criticism is always welcome with open arms. The ones who are looking for gossip, well you’ll get it here I guess, so keep reading if you want.  But either ways, there are going to be MAJOR changes with the writing style. And the people (mostly the paajis and the parijaiyans) who might have a problem with the new me can seriously please not engage with this blog. I already have a lot on my plate (you will know things soon enough) and carrying the weight of your opinions isn’t important enough anymore. 

My mom has been behind me to revive the blog but I haven’t had any motivation to because I have this constant fear that I will be gossiped about and especially in my hometown and family, where the favourite pastime among everyone is to judge without even knowing the whole picture first. It is kind of pathetic, I know, like why start a blog if that’s your fear? But sometimes things are more than just black and white.

From the time I started the blog, I thought oh you know, I can write a blog that will impress the aunties and uncles and the endless amount of people who’s opinions should not actually be my concern (late realisation trophy to me!). But I have now come to realise that this is not the case. I just cannot do that. I am sorry to the audience that is going to be majorly disappointed with my ‘poor decisions’ in the upcoming blogs. 

To the ones who thought that I was a goodie-two-shoes, man you all are in for a huge shock. I was one for the longest time in my life. Not anymore, college is a wild place fr. If you have noticed by this point, my style of writing also has changed a little. But yes, this girl right here has started to meet the world and boy are you all in for surprises.